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I really don't know where I’m going next. And when you're already miserable in real life, and this no-income responsibly feels like a zero-sum game. No amount of “hey can you stop it” meant anything.
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Instead of looking forward to movies or games, it was people doomspiraling about their job, it was people really wanting to talk politics, it was people saying REALLY inappropriate things because they heard it on the shows – when it gets edited out of the television broadcast, and that place has minors. Just became a passive-aggressive nightmare. The community that I thought would be optimistic. It just kept going, just simply put – it became miserable. I tried to feel happy, but it's been difficult when you have no way of explaining “hey, when is invitation to party coming back” or why you just couldn't get into “name your price”. They made a support thread to cheer me up, lots of great vibes from really nice people, but it simply didn't help, that feeling was empty. I didn't really feel like I was that “bumper”, it felt like I was simply just a Hall Monitor to all the goofballs throwing paper airplanes. The content changed and so did the community. And I'm so grateful to know all of them.Īround March, I got really burnt out. I got to make so many friends, both at the company, and in that chatroom.
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It helped, but it only is a temporary fix. I was simply just a large adult male taking care of my mom, as she’s in poor health and using the Discord as a personal distraction from all this sadness. People assumed I worked at G4, felt I should be talent.īut the truth is – I wasn’t. And I was so happy.Īs a moderator, I pretty much cultivated the community that I wanted to see – that optimistic, light-hearted, family that I missed and know gaming could become.Īll of this happened in January 2021, and being “the face” of that community felt amazing. Simply put, my childhood got resurrected. I've seen everything from B4G4 Beta Tests, to Beach House test audiences all the way to launch and beyond. It's been my home for over a year, even though I’m simply an unpaid moderator. The comedy video game channel is back and shows like “Attack of the Show” and “Xplay” returned with it. How revolutionary!Īnyway, this is one of the most painful articles I've ever had to write, because wherever I write a “goodbye” to any creative endeavor, I always feel like a piece of myself is going away with it.Īs many of you know, G4 has returned.